Time and tide waits for no man

Life have been ugly recently. ;(
Life have been hectic.
Didn't expect jc to be so difficult to handle ;'( I'm so stressed out now. Really. I need time, I need time.

And on 10march, my ahgong left us without a word. ;'(
On 7march, I visited him in the hospital, he had a mild heart attack and went for a coronary bypass. He was so happy, smiling away, enjoying his stay in a grand suite which costs 4000 a day, but he paid 980 for a night. Hehe My cute and stubborn ahgong wanted a piece of our fry, afterwhich, he requested for more. My aunt told him its the very last piece and he said 'give me the longest one'. Don't he sound like a kid?(: That's my ahgong, (': then the next day he was discharged! Doc said he was fine just need proper care. Then two days later, while he was sitting in the kitchen eating his grapes, he collapsed. Without a word.
That very afternoon, he even sat and talked and laughed with my mum's aunt. Talking bout all his grandchildren. 'tianzhi still in USA'
'ashlyn still is Sydney'
'tientien tmr going Taiwan'
Etc :'(
My mum was screaming through the phone while I called the ambulance immediately. 10-15 mins later the ambulance arrived at his house and sent him to tts hospital. Doctors tried for half an hour to resuscitate him, to no avail. The doctors gave up. :'(
The wake lasted from Sun to Wed. Everybody was devastated, friends and relatives were shocked. My ahgong, who looks like 70 when he is 80, who hasn't been to the hospital once, who takes morning walk everyday, who eats buffet whenever he like, just pass on without a word..He was the nicest, the most caring, the funniest, the loveliest, the more respectable, the most of everything.
He never fails to crack a joke or two everyday whenever we go Bangkok tog, or whenever he asks us for buffet. Every Chinese new year is filled with cookies and goodies and laughers cause of him.
We were told that his heart muscle ruptured, causing blood to flow throughout his lungs, preventing oxygen from flowing to his body. My brother said the death rate was 100%. :'( however it is a blessing in disguise. This is the fastest way a person can die without pain compared to the while other spectrum of death ways. So I guess it was a blessing, somehow.
Being a person with the heart of gold, I believe ahgong will go to a better place to live-heaven. (':

阿公，您安心吧。

Every single min spent with you loved one is precious, treasure it. You never know when will be the last time you can talk to them cause time, waits for nobody.

End of Orientation

The first two weeks in ACJC was full of fun, (: I love my OG mates and I'm going to miss them when we go our seperate classes from Monday onwards. There were times in AC when I felt the tingling bit of sadness, cause I felt as if I don't belong here in ACJC, but I hope it is just the transition period and that things will get better, (:
For the first few lectures in AC, I was 80% attentive. As the days past and I attended more and more lectures, my attention became <50% or worst, 0% cause I fell asleep. HAHA This is damn bad, cause when I wake up, I caught nothing and had to struggle to udnerstand during revision myself. Gosh, wake up Tien!
At the end of the day, I'd decided to continue taking Chinese. Hopefully I'll get an A this time round. So, Bio Chem Math Econs Chi, LET'S GO!

Sometimes during training I will have to battle against my inner emotions. They try to overwhelm me with the harsh reality, and most of the time they get to near success. :'( I really want to play this year A Div', idm being a Libero, I've always wanted to try a new position. Indeed, nothing can beat the feeling of spiking a damn good ball. Nonetheless, saving a difficult ball is also (Y) But my therapist discourages me from entering competitive sports this year. :( Really, each time you try so hard to work towards your goal and and you fail. The feeling is horrible. :'(

An early V. Day present!
Thanks KS, <3

Went shopping with KS today and we are both happy with our buys for each other! (:

COSMOS: JET FIRE

Thank God, I got into the same OG as Ryshire! (: Out of so many other OG group! I'm euphoric! (:

We shake from Left to Right
We rock from Side to Side
Oh
OGAWA
Cosmos got the POWER
Bang BAng Chu Chu Train
C'mon Baby do your thing!
No Chance
No Luck
COSMOS gna kick your BUTT
HA!